November 2018 saw me freshly broken up, drinking daily, and suffering a bulimia relapse. Despite the fact that my mental health was swiftly deteriorating, I pretended like I had my shit together, working a managerial job and attending school full time. 

Unsurprisingly, this facade was making me even MORE depressed. I was desperate to talk to someone about what I was going through, but fear and shame kept me from doing so. It was during this time in my life that I began listening to podcasts, which made me feel less alone. One day I found myself thinking, You need a sign, bitch? This is it. The only way you’re going to free yourself from these feelings is by talking about them. And what better medium than a podcast, where you can expose the darkest parts of your brain and release them into the void? 

Thus Pickles and Vodka was born.

Since then, the podcast has grown into a safe platform where anyone can talk about the things they feel like they can’t talk about in real life. Through the power of radical vulnerability–and a healthy amount of dark humor–we’re taking away the shame associated with mental health one episode at a time.